While working at my proper and positive focus for my eyes as explained last post, I learned that God doesn't speak in our minds. He talks to us in our spirit, which is near our heart - in gentle, quiet thoughts that don't frighten, confuse or take control. We then can process what we hear there in our minds and decide whether or not to receive them or reject them. Since the Holy Spirit of God is how we receive them first, and God is love, we have no trouble accepting His positive, loving and wise thoughts.
The fearful, threatening,loud and nattering voices on the other hand are heard in our heads and are definitely not from God or anything good. I knew that I had to reject these totally in order to be rid of them. I realized that they had been remaining because I thought I might miss something God wanted to say to me and I would be telling Him to go. Once I got definite about wanting them to leave me they did. They would only return for a little if my mind was torn again through some serious confusion. As I learned to trust God to give me the guidance I needed in my confusion, or to accept that I didn't need an answer now, I'd find peace again. The voices would then leave again. For around 13 years I haven't heard these voices, because God helps me to overcome fear and confusions by His grace and truth. Impatience and disobedience to His will are still areas I have to work at.
Next time I'll share more about why long-term and excessive fear of failure to succeed, confusion of direction or truth, and impatience lead us to our psychoses. I'll also give some powerful scriptures to counteract those triggers for fear. (I should explain here that the 3 triggers I mention for psychoses here are those I've found in sufferers of schizophrenia that I have encouraged.. I believe that different triggers like long-term and excessive anger or unforgiveness are involved in those with other disorders).
As with all my posts, these comments are from my own experience with my illness and are shared in the hope that what worked for me will help others.
Blessings,
Annie
I am amazed at the strength God gave you to cope with your circumstance in the moment!! I always look forward to your fresh perspective and I learn from you. Keep posting!
ReplyDeleteI really hope you write again. You are such an inspiration and your story is so profound and deep, you have an ability to touch so many people. I am hanging around the blogs these days... so hope to maybe see a new post here soon? I know it's been some time.
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